The movie's subjects would not have been as interesting to me be it not for a conversation I had with my sister hours prior. Something in particular, this in essence:
--Gabby, I would hate to see you hurt again.
--I will definitely be hurt again, but it won't be because of my past anymore.
--What? Don't say that.
I was looking up definitions of these words that seem to hold more than my small mind can really untangle. Merriam-Webster gives good words for big words. Hope: to desire, to cherish a desire....with anticipation of obtainment. How could someone not feel that...Hope. Is Hope always cradled in delusional optimism? I'm sure there is some movie out there that talks about rational optimism? Delusional pessimism? I'm sure there are...but last night I did not see those. Last night I saw delusional optimist and rational pessimism. And in my last conversation with my sister I felt like a rational pessimist bordering on delusional, and yet there was Hope.
Merrriam-Webster gives hard words for big words. Delusion: belief held with strong conviction despite superior evidence to the contrary...superior evidence to the contrary....superior evidence to the contrary. Reason: based on facts, optimal for achieving goal. And Optimism? Hopefulness and confidence of a favorable outcome. Pessimism: a tendency to anticipate bad or undesirable outcomes. If its true or not, I'm not sure...if its real or not, I don't know, but do we tuck-in Hope in bed with a delusional optimism more often then not as the movie suggested? Does Hope sleep with rational pessimism? Can Hope even exist in rational optimism, is it needed then?
People are full of delusions, they are full of reason, of optimism and of pessimism...we sleep with this, that, and the other. Sometimes I am a rational pessimist, sometimes I'm delusional and pessimistic. I am definitely prone to reason, but sometimes I am the quintessential delusional optimist. Always, I cherish my desire for obtainment...what I get, I make it up as I go.
I sleep with Hope.Just me and Hope.